maternity leave ending,sigh :(

Time really flies..my 4 months of maternity leave is ending soon..kind of mixed feelings..rather sad because need to work and unable to see rayden so often..everyday gonna see him lesser..the most is few hours deducting the time to eat,bath and sleep..haiz..I am thinking whether should I or should I not?? Hubby is very supportive and nice..he is asking me to proceed with it if I want and that he is able to cope with it..but at the same times I cannot be too selfish..so I am kinda of stuck..rather contradicting feeling I guess..one moment I felt like just go ahead with it but at the same time I am hesitating about it..Yesterday we took rayden out to swim...we even signed up a package for him..hehe..he enjoyed the swimming so much..we decided to sign the package and bring him there often..Seeing rayden growing day by day...his smile n everything just melts my heart especially when he laugh each time I played with him and also when hr kissed me whenever I asked him to do so..I felt so happy :)Nw rAyden and hubby is the most important ones to me.