There will never be any everlasting love nor loving you forever and forever all these are just fairy tales stories but will never happen in real life...I really envy my friend, Serene for having such a great and wonderful husband who truly loves her deeply who really put in effort to change for her by quitting smoking and even till her passing on he will still think of her all the time and always reminisce their past and even continue to talk about her in fb...serene have always said that she envy me for having such a great husband but guess she is wrong...the one who is having a great husband and being fortunate is her not me...just less than 5 years of marriage let me see through him and I had enough of this marriage and there is no turning back anymore...I want back my life I do not wish to be stuck in such meaningless marriage for life...the promises that he made was not fulfil at all and this shows n tells how much his love is for me...he may be telling me no he truly loves me but all these are just lies and not from his bottom of his heart...he is just keeping the marriage going for the sake of the kids...he can do this but not me...

All About baby J

Baby J is in its week 39..shall be seeing him soon..I know that for bb J i did not create any blog to updates about him partly because I am really super tired and busy with Rayden and needed to rest whenever Rayden is asleep and simply no time to create another blog...hope that bb J will not be angry about it..but will try to create a blog and update about his growing up if possible..


We are all looking forward to bb J arrival :)  Throughout my whole pregnancy..bb J is really a very obedient boy..during the first 3 months of pregnancy, I was having nausea..however each time I am vomitting..i will talk to him and tell him not to make me so miserable and he really listen and I would not vomit any further..so i seldom have much nausea for this pregnancy..hehe..best part was that most of the time I am coping pretty well with it..which i am really amazed by him..keke..his favourite past time would be always moving around in the tummy without fail and popping out on and off from left to right to centre of my tummy..each time he hears Rayden's voice, he became super active..starts to have even more stronger movements and popping out on and off even more often..haha..guess is the power of baby talk and he love his elder bro, Rayden..Rayden also love him because everytime i will ask Rayden where is di di?  He will starts to look at my stomach and then starts to touch my stomach and sayang his bro..haha..


The whole 9 months plus of pregnancy is great..but at the same time tiring too due to having to take care of darling Rayden as well..but is worth it..keke...I am always looking forward for gynae's checkup..no doubt the waiting time is a killer but is worthwhile because I gets to see darling baby J..gets to hear his heartbeats..seeing him moving around in the tummy etc..but such great moments is always short..lolz..only gets to see him for less than 2 mins..haha..but soon i can get to see him withut the use of scan..haha..


I have always keep all baby J scan photos in the photo album together with Rayden scan..all these are very precious to me..next time I can show it to them when they are older..keke..


Baby J..now mummy just hope that you will cooperate and work together with mummy for the last move to come out fast fast during the delivery and reduces mummy pain ya..muacks :)


Shall update more when bb J is born :) hehe

Growing up Rayden :)

It has been a long time since i last blog..was very very tired and busy taking care of Rayden and at the same time coping with my 2nd pregnancy with bb J..time passed fast..Rayden is already 13 months old..i just love to see his charming cheeky smile..at times he really make me very angry with him but seeing his cheeky smile makes me forget about it..the tough part was getting him to eat his porridge..he is always trying to make those funny little actions and trying to blow and blow till all the porridge are all over the floor and his walker..omg..but glad that now he is better and does not do that so often :)

Finally he know how to crawl when he was about 11 months old..He is now learning to talk and walk too..seeing him growing up each day and spending time with him is the most precious moments for me :) He loved to play with water..waterplay is his best activities..which i will post up some photos..keke..http://www.facebook.com/ajax/flash/expand_inline.php?v=10150798640704123&target_div=ucelep_44&playertype=permalink&max_width=403&max_height=403&context=timelineSingle

Will be giving birth soon and kind of excited and nervous at the same time...quite a mixed feelings for me..worried about the contraction pain and whether can i handle without epidural etc..all i pray for is a smooth, fast delivery for me..so that Rayden gets to see his little bro soon..lolz..wonder how will he react??will he be curious upon seeing his little bro??keke..lets stay tuned on that..shall update once i have the time to do so..as i can foresee with one more member coming..more busier and lesser time for blogging and doing my own stuffs..

Rayden is 10 months old :)

Time really flies..since pregnancy till birth until now Rayden is already 10 months old. I am really proud and happy to have him..he is my bubbly boy :) always love to play and showed us new tricks of his...lolz..now when we count to 3 he will just let go and fall back on us to catch him..haha so cute :) He just loves to play and walk around in his playpen daily..finally he know how to crawl and learning how to walk now..seeing him growing up day by day and spending time with him is a great thing. I love him so much. I have not been working for 5 months since my 2nd pregnancy..now is my bonding time with Rayden before the birth of his bro.. Currently I am 7 months preggy and so excited and scared to face the labour again after such a short time after delivery of Rayden. Plus the scary and painful experience of my first labour makes me so scared and hoping for time to pass slower so that I don't have to deliver yet.. But at the same time I m looking forward to see baby j and wonder will he resemble his bro??will he be like his bro so active and funny??will get to see baby j in early march on my new checkup and I am counting down to see him..hehe Shall continue to update whenever I can :)

Rayden is already 8 months old

At 8 months old

At 7 months old

at 6 months old

at 5 months old

Time flies..Rayden is already 8 months old and he is getting more and more playful..he loves to smile whenever we sneeze or cough..wonder why this will amuse him so much, haha..Now he knows how to clap his hands, wave goodbye, high 5, walk super fast in his walker..the only thing that he don't know and refused to learn is crawling..till now he don't want to crawl at all be it we flip him over on the crawling position..he will starts to cry..lolz..

Currently I am not working and busy taking care of him daily..spending more time with him and bonding more with him..he is getting more and more mischievous too..he could be quite cranky at times too..sometimes coping with him is not easy..but when he is super sweet..he can really be such a dearie..kissing and hugging you :)

This playful boy is even trying to learn how to walk...is rather tiring and tedious having to hold him and walking around with him..but at the same time is fun to see him learning how to walk and walking with him is a joy too..it has been a long time since i did my blogging about this naughty little boy..shall post some photos of his growing up period. Shall let the photos do the talking :)

Rayden turning 4 months old :)

Darling sitting on top of Zeus :)

His swimming session last nite...

His very first swimming lesson picture..

Time really passed fast...in a blink of eye...Rayden is turning 4 months old by tomorrow :). It seems like I have just given birth not long and now he is already 4 months old..took leave tomorrow because he is going for his injection and wanted to check with PD on various things such as whether his current weight is perfect? Why is he vomiting milk like merlion? What can be done to improve? Does his vomiting link to my breastmilk?? I wanted to prove this case because of some particular issue. As i felt that it has nothing to do with my breastmilk as it is normal and common for babies to vomit milk moreover i handle the milk with care and i delibrately went to purchase a mini freezer just to store all the breast milk. Intend to BF him till he turn 1 years old..hope that with dear's support i can endure and make it till he turn 1 years old.

Was feeling very sad and disappointed over something and wonder will there be better ones approaching? Hopefully so..praying hard for tomorrow..hope that i can make it and this time round they don't mind these factors..

Took Rayden for a swim yesterday and he was rather cranky and wanted to sleep..i guess he can only swim in the daytime but not the night..took him to NEX twice on a night time swim and both failed..he simply don't enjoy and kept crying...shall bring him for swim during the daytime next month since is the 7th mth now..lolz..so he needed to avoid swimming otherwise mummy sure nag..

I hope that my Lego will be completed ASAP..praying hard for the foundation to expedite and finish soon so that the rest will be pretty fast after that and we could have our own nest..our Home Sweet Home..then i don't have to live under the roof of others...Afterall having own's home is better than anything else..

Rayden is always having problem to sleep early at night, every night he will always cry badly before he goes to bed...really having a hard time coping with his such behaviour and wonder how long this has to goes on?? The poor daddy always have to carry him for hours and sing 一半 for him to listen before he sleep..but guess this trick will not last for long as he is getting rather impatient and kept screaming loudly at his dad..haiz..sob sob..pray that he be guai guai...

Super tired :(

Back to work since last Monday and since then I had not sleep much..simply lack of beauty sleep :(. Everyday pumping milk at 7am, 12noon, 5pm, 10pm and 3am..omg..daily no joke man..sleep only 3 hours a day or so..sob sob.Rayden is turning 4 months old..time really flies :( he is getting more n more talkative like the daddy sim.. He is minnie talkative sim..lolzz..this morning when he woke up..he was so busy talking to my Betty Boop pillow..haha..I can't help laughing at him..We signed him up for a 10 session swimming package @ $268 since he enjoyed swimming and loves water :) then all 2 sessions he was always laughing and playing happily except last sat because he was tired and wanted to sleep so was rather cranky and guess what? He doze off while swimming..haha.like father like son can sleep anytime anywhere..really take my hats off him. Every morning when he wake up.. The first thing he did is smile to me and that smile means a lot to me..is so nice n sweet that will melt my heart and this little terror learn a new thing.. He will open his mouth to kiss us when we tell him to do so..lolz..Ok shall stop here and will updates again soon.